[PHONE RINGS]
- Hello. - I don't want to nag you,
but that's three times this week we haven't taken a walk,
because you ran down to the office for a minute that turned into an hour.
- Walking out the door. - I love you.
I love you too.
[MOUTHS] Wait.
[PHONE RINGING]
Yes.
RUTHIE: Thank you.
[PHONE RINGS]
- Hello? - Hi, Ruthie.
- Are you guys at Chloe's? - No, it's three-way calling.
- Don't you have three-way calling? - No.
Well, get a clue. Everyone's got it. It's cool.
You've gotta have three-way calling if you want us all to be friends.
Don't you wanna be friends?
- Duh, of course. - Good.
Then you have to help us get rid of Sarah.
She can't be following us around because she's a total geek-loser.
Yeah, we can't be seen with losers
or other people are gonna think that we're losers too.
So are you gonna help us or what?
Sure, I guess. We're friends, right?
That's right. See you tomorrow at school, and don't forget.
Yeah, and don't forget.
What's wrong? Are you gonna cry or something?
No, I'm not gonna cry. I'm reflecting.
I just read this really terrible book.
- Why? - I had to. It's required for school.
Why is reading terrible books required?
Do they run out of all the good books by the eighth grade?
It's not terrible, it's terribly sad.
It's about people doing awful things, and then at the end,
Johnny dies after bravely rescuing these kids from a fire.
Well, that'll teach you not to play with matches.
No, that's not what it'll teach you.
Well, then what does it teach you? Not to rescue other kids?
No.
Yeah. Well, the lesson's much more complicated than that.
I don't have any time to explain it all to you now. I have a paper to write.
Well, then I guess you should get to your paper.
I don't think it's right to drag all of our laundry over here.
It's just not right.
Don't worry about it. My mom doesn't care.
ANNIE: I don't care. SHANA: Oh, that's very nice of you,
but you're doing laundry for six kids and two adults,
and I'm sure you don't need us dragging our laundry here.
Oh, don't be silly. Mi washer-dryer es su washer-dryer.
I saved two pieces of fat-free cheesecake. It's in the fridge.
- See, it's really okay. - No, it's not.
Ugh. I don't feel right about this. I wish I hadn't agreed to it.
Hey. Doing laundry?
Uh, maybe. Mom's upstairs.
I thought we were gonna get together and talk tonight.
Well, that's what we're doing. We're here, together,
talking and washing and drying and--
Matt, you can't talk me into it. It's just not gonna happen.
All I'm asking is that you consider it.
I have. So consider it considered, and the answer is no.
Okay. No pressure.
You wanna do a load of whites together?
To tell you the truth, I don't wanna do anything that intimate right now.
Fine. You wash your whites first,
and I'll get Mary and Lucy off the stairway.
[SHANA CLEARS THROAT]
MATT: Don't even think about it, the cheesecake's ours.
Anything you were snooping around to hear is none of your business.
"None of your business."
Simon's in charge of the twins while we take our walk. What's this?
I found that slipped under the door in my office on my way out.
I didn't want to open it, because I was rushing home
to walk with my woman.
Heh-heh. Well, I think we have a few moments to spare.
Okay.
It's a cheque made out to the church for $20,000.
It is. It is.
[LAUGHING]
[SIGHS]
Ah.
[IN IRISH ACCENT] I see me boy is having himself
a wee leprechaun of a breakfast.
- What happened to me lad? - Guilt happened.
That's what happened.
I can't enjoy my food knowing there are so many people in this world
who are starving.
[IN NORMAL VOICE] Okay.
Well, yeah, you know, there are people who are starving,
and there are things we can do to help,
but no one's gonna be hungrier if you eat your usual breakfast.
It's a symbolic gesture.
I wanna remind myself of what's going on.
What is going on according to the paper?
Let's see. Where would you like to start?
The plight of the Kosovo refugees, famine in North Korea,
the kid who got caught stealing a can of tuna fish
from the 7-Eleven to feed his family.
I think that was his cat.
The kid didn't want his mom to know that he'd taken in a stray cat.
You know how many cans of tuna it would take
to feed all the stray cats in the world?
Hey, I've got some good news.
One of our parishioners made a big cash contribution.
- It's really gonna help the church. - Why'd they do that?
I don't know, but why not?
Because no matter how much money it is,
it'll never be enough to help everyone.
Is it?
[BABY BABBLING]
ANNIE: Ruthie.
I thought you were keeping an eye on your brothers.
RUTHIE: Oops.
ANNIE: Sam and David are crawling now.
You have to watch them every second.
I can't watch them every second.
The only person who can watch them every second is God.
So why don't we just let God watch them?
Because...
Because that's why God put everyone on Earth.
To watch after each other.
I've got a big enough job just watching after myself.
That's no excuse.
- Okay. - You have no idea
what school is like these days. It's every girl for herself.
You can't be nice to everyone,
and even if someone could save people from the fire,
he'd probably get hurt, even killed doing it.
And if you're just gonna get killed, why even try to be a hero?
How much sugar did you have today?
No. It was in Simon's terrible book.
He was reading it and got into a terrible mood,
and now I'm in a terrible mood.
LUCY: But he's got an apartment.
And she's got her apartment. So?
They have the opportunity, and don't forget the motive.
ANNIE: Motive for what?
We'll talk about this later.
[BABIES BABBLING AND LAUGHING]
Oh... Peekaboo.
Peekaboo.
[ANNIE AND BABY LAUGHING]
ERIC: What are you doing?
I was just watching Sam and David.
They're so cute and innocent.
I wish I could keep them this way forever.
I know.
- So you going to the bank? - Oh, well, not yet.
I gotta get over to the church and do some work on my sermon,
and I wanted to ask Sachiko Ishida to stop over.
I'd just like to talk to her about the cheque
before I go ahead and deposit it.
Oh, good idea. I know the church could really use the money,
but Sachiko, being older and alone, might need it too.
But who knows, maybe she won the lottery.
I sincerely hope so, but I doubt it.
The cheque makes me uneasy. I don't have a good feeling about it.
You haven't been talking to Simon, have you?
- Well, actually I have. - Ah.
Wow, that kid's a black hole.
He's sucked the life out of this entire family with his bad mood.
Try to keep out of his gravitational pull.
Hmm.
[BABBLING]
[KNOCKING ON DOOR]
SHANA: Hello.
- Hello? - Hold on, I'm almost there.
I'm gonna ace this test.
I came over to give you this. It got mixed up in my laundry bag.
Thanks, you didn't have to bring it over. I would have gotten it later.
Later is something I'm not sure about.
I'm confused.
And evidently doing laundry just confused you more.
What's wrong? It's just laundry.
See, this is exactly why we should do what other couples do.
Matt, I think we should slow down and maybe see other people.
Where'd this come from?
I just think this relationship is too much for me.
It's interfering with my studies.
Right, it's interfering so much you have a 4.0 grade average.
I won't be able to keep up a 4.0 if this keeps up.
- This what? - This relationship.
Shana, I don't wanna see other people.
And I don't think you want to see other people
for any other reason than to push me away.
Oh, so you got it all figured out already, don't you, Dr. Freud?
No, I don't have it all figured out.
I want this to work, and I'd love to find out why you're being like this.
- Like what? - Like distant
and completely and unrelentingly stubborn about something I wanna do.
Don't my needs count for anything?
I'm sorry. I've got this test. I'll call you.
Hey, this isn't my shirt.
[KIDS LAUGHING AND CHATTERING]
ALL: Friends together. Girl power forever.
[LAUGHING]
- What are you guys doing? - None of your beeswax.
Yeah, it's a secret. It's only for girls, and you're not a girl.
- I am so a girl. - You are not. You're a bird.
Yeah, you're a skinny bird who can't do anything.
CHLOE: Fly away, skinny bird, shoo. NINA: Yeah, go away birdie.
You guys better stop it.
Oh, poor birdie. What are you gonna do about it, bird face?
- Tweet, tweet, tweet, tweet, tweet. - Chirp, chirp, chirp, chirp, chirp.
Hey.
Janice told me about the big homecoming party this weekend
for the boy's basketball team.
Where have you been? Only everyone at school is going.
Everyone wants to show support after what happened with the girls' team.
Well, they're all a bunch of screw-ups.
First they bombed out with their grades,
and then they break into the gym and vandalise it.
- How stupid is that? - I know.
It made the whole school look bad.
Do you mind? You're talking about my sister.
Who's your sister?
Mary Camden. She was team captain.
Sorry, we didn't know.
No offence to you or anything. We like you.
Yeah, you're really nice. And smart.
You're not anything like your sister. You should come to the party with us.
Yeah, it'll be great.
But you know you can't bring your sister.
No offence, but all the girl players are officially out.
I don't think so. No offence or anything.
Lucy looks great this year.
Too bad she has that loser sister.
Have you guys seen my sister Lucy?
Thanks.
[KNOCKING ON DOOR]
Oh.
Thank you so much for coming down, Sachiko.
I didn't think that donating money would be such a problem, Reverend.
I assumed the church could use the money.
Oh, yes. It's something we can always use.
And it's greatly appreciated.
But there still seems to be a problem.
It's just that it's such a large cheque.
I just wanted to make sure it wasn't a mistake.
Twenty thousand dollars, it's a lot of money.
Yes.
- That's the correct amount. - I see.
Twenty thousand dollars.
I've been holding on to the money
because I didn't know what to do with it.
It's the reparation money that I received from the government.
When I was a child,
my family was taken to an internment camp during the war.
We lived in horse stalls before we were transferred to the actual camp.
At the same time,
my brother fought in the 442nd Regiment
for the same country that had us in the internment camp.
My parents lost their farming business, and after the war,
my father returned from camp a broken man.
My mother worked hard to support all of us.
Both parents died long before the reparation money.
Like them, most of the people who suffered
and deserved the money the most are not alive today.
I don't want the money. It's blood money.
Money cannot undo what's been done.
Rights, dignity and respect.
I want it off my hands so I don't have to talk about it ever again.
Please, just take the money.
- What are we doing? - I'm reading about internment camps.
RUTHIE: Camp. I wanna go to summer camp next year.
Oh. No, no, no.
No, internment camp is something you never wanna have to go to.
- Why? - Internment camps are terrible.
During World War II, when we were at war with Japan,
our government thought that anyone of Japanese ancestry living here
could be a threat to America.
Our government thought that the Japanese-Americans
might be spies or that they would give information to Japan.
So we took all the Japanese living here,
even those who had been born here,
and we put them in internment camps,
where they were locked up like they were in jail.
Everything was taken from them.
A lot of Americans thought it was wrong, but they didn't say anything,
because they were afraid that people would think
that they were siding with the enemy.
Well, didn't they have any friends who would help them?
I'm sure they had plenty of friends, but people aren't perfect, you know?
Being human means that we not only have strengths,
we have a lot of weaknesses too.
Like being afraid to do the right thing or needing people to like us.
What happened was wrong,
and our government eventually admitted
that they'd made a terrible mistake.
They violated constitutional rights,
and the government gave the Japanese some money
as a form of apology. It's called reparation money.
I just got off the phone with your teacher.
It seems that Ruthie and her friends made a little girl cry at school today.
I think you have some explaining to do, Ruthie.
Sarah's not in our group.
Being seen with her would bring our standing way down.
I know that Chloe and Nina shouldn't have called her names,
but what can I do? I'm only human.
It was a weak moment.
That doesn't even come close to being an excuse.
I'd give her some money to make it all better,
but I don't have any.
I'm surprised at you.
You know money doesn't make it all better.
Well, the government does it, so it must help.
ANNIE: No, it wouldn't.
I want you to apologise to Sarah, tomorrow.
But I didn't say anything.
That's just as bad, maybe even worse.
How would you like to be in Sarah's place?
Well, if I apologise to her, I am going to be in her place.
[ANNIE SIGHS]
Well, she shouldn't have done it.
- I didn't say anything. - Well, you could have.
ANNIE: You eating for two now?
It's a high-energy day.
I had a big test and a big fight with Shana.
She wants to see other people.
Did you do something to make her wanna see other people?
- No, I didn't do anything. - Well, what was the fight about?
I don't feel comfortable talking about it right now.
Don't worry, I'll eat these somewhere else so you two can talk.
The conversation's probably too intimate for me anyway.
If I still lived here, you wouldn't have made that comment in front of Mom.
You're just trying to make me look bad because I didn't include you.
Matt?
- I'm sorry. MATT: Well, it's too late.
Ever since I moved out, everyone treats me
like I'm some guy stopping by to eat or do laundry.
I'm part of the family, you know?
And I'm still your big brother, which entitles me to lecture you.
So hear this. My private life is still my private life.
- I'm not apologising to her. - Okay.
But maybe later, you should talk to her.
Fine, but her comment was totally uncalled for.
My private life is my private life.
I understand, but now that that word "intimacy"
has reared its interesting head,
do you wanna talk about your private life?
- Not really, I just wanna eat. - Okay.
- I'll clean up when I'm done? - Okay.
Matt's never yelled at me like that before.
It's no big deal.
It is to me.
He hurt my feelings.
Then you shouldn't have said anything. You were trying to get him in trouble.
Well, he was leaving me out of the conversation.
You don't like to be left out, do you?
How would you know anything about being left out?
I'm persona non grata, or haven't you noticed?
You have been in the in-crowd your whole life.
You've been Miss Star Athlete, Miss Big Deal, Miss Popularity,
all during high school.
You have no idea what it's like to be left out.
Are you crazy?
Why do you think I got into basketball in the first place?
Now, I was, like, 7 feet tall by the time I got into fifth grade.
Kids laughed at me, and called me names,
and so I did something.
I learned a sport,
and I used my height instead of just complaining about it.
I became an athlete instead of just whining about being different.
And after all that hard work,
I'm nothing now.
I'm just the tall bad girl, who let everybody down,
and now I'm paying for it.
Here, go ahead and finish it off.
No, that's okay.
Wouldn't wanna let it go to waste.
What's with you? Those are your favourite cookies.
Not anymore.
Take a look at the ingredients on the lid.
Additives, preservatives, chemicals. All that for money.
All that junk is filler.
And the shelf life's probably a few hundred years.
- I was looking forward to this. - You might as well eat it.
We're all just pawns being manipulated by the corruption of politics
and big business anyway. Knowing about our health and environment,
they just make bigger gas-guzzling SUVs,
package the food in plastic,
which leaches poisons into our bodies, sell arms to other countries,
then declare war on them because they use them,
and make paper towels and tissue that only promote waste.
[PHONE RINGS]
Hello?
Hi, Tammy.
No, I don't know if I'm going to the party or not.
Let me think about it.
Okay, bye.
Just to let you know, Shana and I aren't fighting about sex.
That's not what I meant by intimate. Tell Lucy that.
I'm sure she's dying to know.
I'm not your messenger and I don't care what you and Shana are doing.
Oh, right, I forgot.
You don't care about anybody but yourself.
[VOICE MAIL] Hi, this is Shana for Matt.
Matt, listen, I'm sorry about today.
I really don't wanna see other people, but I do want a time-out from you.
I'll call you.
[BEEPS]
ANNIE: So how you doing?
Oh, okay, considering. How about you?
Okay, considering that this bad mood has set off a bad mood
in practically every member of the family.
Well, I'm sorry. I didn't know anyone else was in a bad mood.
Well, you'll have to stop. Bad moods are as contagious as chicken pox.
Yeah, well.
It seems the whole world's in a bad mood.
You know, good moods are contagious too.
So as of right now, we are both gonna be in a better mood.
- Just like that? - Yeah, we're gonna put on a smile
- and pretend to be in a good mood. - You mean, fake it?
What's the difference in pretending and being in a good mood?
You got me.
Right, it's very hard to tell the difference.
So just start by pretending, and the reality will catch up with you.
Well, okay, but I don't know how long it's going to last.
I know how to make it last. Once you get your mood up,
help someone to actually do something that contributes
to someone else feeling better or getting what they need.
Service to others makes you feel good.
And there are so many others to serve.
That's right. So pick one and another one, and smile, baby, smile.
[CHATTERING AND LAUGHING]
- Hey, Luce, do you have a second? - Sure.
I'm sorry about last night. This is my problem not yours,
and it's probably all in my head that people are shunning me
and the other basketball players.
[LAUGHING]
Okay, maybe they are shunning me,
but it's gotta blow over eventually, right?
And even if it doesn't, at least I have my family.
Yeah.
See you on Saturday. Party, party.
I wasn't gonna go, and then I thought I might go.
I mean, it's not like I got in trouble, right?
Right. You did nothing.
Except join a whole group of people who are trying to exclude me.
Sorry.
Hello, that's it?
Well, I apologised. Did you want something else?
I thought maybe you'd wanna try and be friends.
You wouldn't wanna be my friend. I let Chloe and Nina make you cry.
I wanna be your friend because I really don't think you're like them.
- Yes, I am. - Fine.
Then I don't wanna be your friend. I thought you were different.
Okay, if you wanna know so bad, I'll tell you.
[MATT SIGHS]
Shana and I started having some problems.
We couldn't talk about them, so I talked to John about them,
and Shana got mad because I talked to John.
So I suggested that we both go and talk to someone else together.
Someone like a counsellor. They have counsellors on campus.
That sounds reasonable.
Oh. She refuses to go and she refuses to talk
about whatever it is that's bothering her.
Do you think Shana would wanna talk to me?
Maybe. I mean, she's not close to her own mom.
Well, I'll call her and ask her if she has time to drop by,
and not make any big deal.
Thank you.
I can't thank you enough for coming down here on such short notice.
I'm happy that I could finally do something for your father.
I owe the Colonel.
Your father has been very involved with aiding public awareness
about the 442nd Regimental Combat Team,
as well as many other veterans' groups and organisations.
Yes, my father took a trip around the world last year,
and he came back quite the political activist.
- He's a very busy man. - You should be very proud.
- I am. - I also wanted to meet Sachiko Ishida.
I served with her brother, Jim, in the 442nd,
and he was a great man. A very brave soldier.
I didn't know you knew Sachiko's brother. My dad just told me
that you were the one to talk to about facts regarding the internment camps.
Well, then it worked out better than expected.
So do you mind telling me your take on the reparation money.
How do you feel about that?
Actually, I welcomed it,
because it paid for my grandson's medical bills.
He was born with some physical problems,
and he's had several operations.
The money is helping pay for his care.
It has been a real hardship on the family.
My wife died several years ago,
and my daughter has had a difficult time
taking care of the boy on her own.
I was able to use that money to help her.
Don't misunderstand me. I'm not saying that the reparation money
evens things out or makes life fair.
Life is not fair.
Maybe I can present a different perspective to Sachiko,
and even if I can't, I'm still looking forward to meeting Jim's sister.
So, Jim?
Yes. Jim Ishida died in service to his country.
What happened to Mr. Doom-and-Gloom?
I'm not raining on anyone's parade. I am a new man, a happy man.
Lucky you, I'd love to be a happy woman.
You can. There's a clothing drive at my school for the Kosovo refugees.
Maybe you can get some things for me to take tomorrow.
Okay, I've got stuff I'm never gonna wear again.
What's all the racket? I've got the blues and I don't wanna be disturbed.
The blues are good, but a good mood's better.
It has sort of a healing quality about it.
- Right. - You should try it.
- You can get in a good mood too. - No, I can't.
Admit it.
You're not really enjoying the blues, are you?
Mm. No, not really.
Then get up, do something, help someone.
Is it me or is it awkward in here?
It's awkward in here.
I came over to talk and I wanna talk, but I don't know how to talk.
And yet here we are talking.
What do you know?
I know that Matt offended you by talking to John about your problems.
Yet he can't talk to me about me.
And you don't wanna go to counselling with him?
Well, maybe this isn't that serious.
Maybe you don't need a professional, just a friend or a mom.
The thing is, it's serious.
I have a serious problem.
There are two kinds of people: those who have seen a therapist,
and those who haven't. I'm the first and Matt's the second.
I don't wanna air my dirty laundry in front of him.
I mean, we're close, but not that close.
I'd like to know how close we're gonna get
before I reveal everything about myself.
And I can't air my dirty laundry in front of my mom,
because my mom is my dirty laundry.
My therapist knows that, but Matt doesn't.
I mean, I had a crummy life, and the crummy part is over.
I've grown up and I'm on my own, and I'm doing fine,
but I didn't grow up like a normal person.
I mean, I don't even know how to do the simplest things like normal people.
Like laundry and...
Laundry seems so intimate.
I mean, putting your dirty stuff in with other people's dirty stuff,
is that okay?
I mean, putting my dirty underwear in with Matt's dirty underwear,
when we haven't even seen each other's underwear.
I mean, is that okay, or is that weird?
This is so insane. I don't care how other people do laundry.
My goal isn't normal. My goal is to be me.
I guess that's what I've been so afraid of talking about with Matt.
[SHANA EXHALES SHARPLY]
I'm sorry, I guess I just needed to hear all of that out loud.
Thanks for listening.
[CHUCKLING]
Hi, Sachiko. I'm sorry to come by without calling,
but I thought this would be a nice surprise for you.
- This is Henry Muranaka. - Nice to meet you.
So this is the friend you wanted me to meet?
I served in the 442nd with your brother, Jim.
I'm sorry that the reverend has wasted your time.
I'm not interested in talking.
- I'm sorry. - I'm sorry.
I hate it when you're mad at me.
Yeah, I know, I feel just as bad when you're mad at me.
I got upset because when I said the word "intimacy,"
everyone just assumed Shana and I are having sex,
and we aren't, not that that's anybody's business anyway.
I know, but you were doing your laundry together.
- So? - Are you kidding?
I would have to be practically married to let some guy see my dirty clothes.
Yuck.
What was I thinking? Thanks.
I'm sorry. Okay.
"How was your day, Dad?" My day was terrible, thank you.
My own father will be calling soon
to see how I screwed up a favour he did for me, but I'm not stressed.
No, no, not stressed. Thanks for asking.
- Hi, hon, you had a phone call. - Oh, could it have been the Colonel?
Because the entire 442nd's probably called
to let him know what a lousy minister I am.
No, it was Sachiko Ishida.
She wants you to come back over and bring your friend Mr. Muranaka.
- Really? - Oh, deep breath.
Relax, everything is fine.
Hey, you're home. How was your day?
Much better, now that you asked.
Good.
Hey, if my dad calls,
tell him thanks for everything and I'll call him back.
It was a stupid idea.
I think we need to spend more time together
before we do laundry.
I just wanna talk to Mary, and then maybe we can spend
time together tonight.
Oh!
I have to go to work.
Right, and I have to study.
Uh, before we both run off in separate directions,
can I tell you something about me?
Sure, yes, please.
Um...
When I was growing up,
I knew my home life was different from the other kids.
So I tried to make myself fit in by doing well in school.
And it worked.
And now, after all that effort for all those years,
after trying to fit in to normal for so long,
I find myself in a position
where I might get to pull away from the pack
and actually get to go to medical school
and become a doctor.
That's my dream.
You scare me.
Getting close to you scares me
because I don't wanna get sidetracked from my dream.
I promise I won't get in your way.
Look, I know you've decided you wanna be a doctor too,
but it's new for you. You're just starting to invest in that dream.
And I've got my whole heart into it.
- Is there room left in there for me? - Don't worry, I'll make room.
But you gotta give me time.
Okay, I have to go now.
It was nice talking to you.
You too.
Thanks for still wanting to be my friend.
- I was really, really bad. SARAH: That's okay.
I used to have a best friend, but she moved away.
It's been hard to find anyone to hang out with because, well,
we never really talked to anyone else.
- I thought it was gonna last forever. - Yeah.
You know, we have conference calling on our phone.
Maybe we can get Chloe and Nina on the line and see if we can join forces.
Is conference calling like three-way calling?
No, it's better. You can get a whole bunch of people on the phone.
Cool. Nina and Chloe will love this.
[PHONE RINGS]
NINA: Hello, Chloe?
- Who is this again? - I'm here.
- Who else is here? - It's us, Sarah and Ruthie.
- Sarah's got conference calling. - Big deal.
They're just trying to show off.
[SIGHS]
Oh, well, we tried.
Yeah, but they still don't wanna talk to me.
No, now they don't want to talk to us.
"Us" sounds nice.
See you at school.
You're gonna have to come out sometime.
Actually I'm not. I'm thinking of signing up for independent study
and finishing the school year in here.
Look, I said you were selfish, but I know you're not selfish,
and I apologise.
I have been selfish. Even-- Even a lot selfish.
Okay, completely selfish, and I was being completely selfish
when I told Lucy that it would be betraying me by going to that party.
Okay, but can we talk about me?
It's hard to care about your family yet grow up and leave your family.
Is that about you? It sounds like it's about me.
How would it be you? I'm the one who left.
And yet you're still here.
Well, it's comforting to come here. Especially when the one relationship
you have outside of here has been a little shaky lately.
- How is it now? - It's-- It's good. Really good.
Then go home. I have to talk to my sister.
- I'm not going. - No, you should go.
You were right, you didn't do anything,
and you shouldn't suffer being left out just because I'm ostracised.
Ostracised? That's a pretty big word for you.
I've had a lot of time to study being left out and all.
- I love you. - I love you too.
And if you keep up all the studying, you could be a Rhodes Scholar
- by the end of the year. - What's that?
Never mind.
By the end of the year, they'll be letting you back into all the parties.
Ah. Sounds good to me.
I'm, uh, so sorry for being so rude to you both today.
I don't know what came over me.
I suppose seeing you brought back bad memories.
I've held such bitterness in my heart since Jim was killed in the war.
Mostly, I have regret. Deep regret about my childhood.
The thoughts I had about myself.
I never admitted this to anyone,
but in my youth,
I felt deep shame about being Japanese.
The way I looked.
You see, there was still so much discrimination after the war,
and I was so embarrassed.
So ashamed that I could be singled out so easily.
I just wanted to be like everyone else.
I would've done anything if there were some way
to conceal the fact that I was...Asian.
And at the same time,
knowing that my own brother fought so heroically to defend this country,
and died for it.
He was American, but still proud of his ancestry.
And here I was alive and still too afraid.
I'm sorry.
Here you are listening to an old woman's silly complaints,
while you fought side by side with my brother.
No, we were all young then.
Even while we were fighting, we had this go-for-broke attitude.
The Hawaiian boys always yelling. We had something to prove.
It was a terrible situation,
but we didn't know the enormity of the injustice until we came back.
At least the ones who were lucky enough
to come back alive.
I made myself a promise after the war.
To dedicate my life to helping others
and to never forget the past.
To make sure it will never happen again.
Being engaged in life renewed my faith in mankind.
Working with other veterans, sharing experiences, good and bad.
Some men who bottled things up didn't fare as well.
Some turned to drink or committed suicide.
While others became embittered and lived in the past
over and over until they lost all hope.
Everyone had to rebuild their lives again.
It was a very dark time in history,
but you have to believe there will be light after the darkness.
But most of all, you have to recognise the light.
Amen to that.
We all get lost in darkness or depression.
Sometimes it feels easier to stay in it than to get out of it.
Sachiko,
I would like you to take this cheque back
and think about it a little more.
Giving away the reparation money isn't going to erase your pain.
You need to
forgive what's happened to you.
But you need to forgive yourself.
The church could certainly use the contribution,
but having a parishioner make peace with the past
is much more valuable to me than having this money.
- Promise that you'll think about it. - I will.
Thank you, Reverend.
Excuse me.
If it's not too much trouble, Henry,
if you're ever in the area, maybe we could talk again.
If it's not too much of a bother.
I wasn't able to move on with my life like you after the war.
I've put my life on hold for so many years, but now, I--
Well, now is a good place to start. How about I take you to dinner?
Oh, well... Yes, please. That's very nice.
Thank you. Can you give me a moment?
Thank you and goodbye, Reverend.
Right. Goodbye.
[SIGHS]
I still got it.